and that at that situation theres nothing i can do?

Yes, i am being controlled but if you were in the
same situation you would proberly give in like

me.

Proberly u think its wrong of him not to give me

a chance, at first i thought it wasn't fair but after

hearing his reasons,i know he did it because he

cared not for me but for us.

Its the same reasons as why our parents won't

allow we kids to go...Yes i killed the party, i ruined

the mood and atmosphere and i destroyed the

friendship... But certainly was it my fault?

Why am i being hated for something inevitable?

u darlings may say why must i confess and tell
the truth? Would you wanna tell you truth instead

of feeling guilty all your life?I admit i am stupid to

tell, but i have to...

i thought, you would understand, i didnt chose love

over friends...

unless u considered an end of my love life would be

a worthy sacrifice for you all...

it all comes down to one last question;

are friendship merely just convalent bonds?

or are they strong intermolecular bond from a

giant molecule( our hearts ).

Me unabling to face you both is because,

you both dun understand how difficult my

position is, and no amount of words from

my mouth could ever heal the wounds...

and that all i wanna do now is to run...

i certainly do not want a weird tension

between us.... but i guess its inevitable...

All i have to say, for the both of u to be

happy, i did more then what u tot.........

i had two big servings of pure quarrel for two

consecutive days...