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Saturday, July 08, 2006
kelvin the jack ass long head say my blog always portray me being sad. . .
i guess its really true as i only blog when i am sad???
today i cant smile. . . i keep thinking of the one. . .
the broken heart revived in your presence and hardened by your coldness
I prayed for chances and i got my chances
but no fate. . . eyes were drifting. . .hearts were blocked away. . .
3 hours together. . . not a single word spoken. . . not even a glance from you
is this what we call of one sided love???
i have never felt so sad so empty and so crazy abt someone. . .
just a faint smile would bring me up to the highest. . .
just your laughter will make me high. . .
just your presence make me happy. . .
just words enlightens me. . .
i just wanna be with you. . . but its so hard so hard. . .
i tried i really tried. . . haiz. . .i really hope things will not turn out to be what i think
but it did. . . and it hurts. . .
probably lyk wad jack ass big head say. . . let it go. . .
but i cant bring myself to let go because i think hes worth it. . .
All i have to do is be strong!!! Be happy!!!Be myself!!!
i am being so lertagic. . . so weak. . . haiz. . .
i only want one word of encouragement. . .
came home at one ytd. . . i think not the lastest. . . the lastest was gg to bert hse to
watch saw2. . .hmmm i had fun with the guys!!! hahha. . . PLAYED POOL!!!
hahah its been 4 months since i played!!! BUT SKILL STILL THERE LEH!! haha
but i learnt how to cut and stuff better. . . hahah. . . who say sion is the only one
who is good in pool. . . =P. . .SUPER FAR BETTER OFF WITHOUT U!!! hahah
hmm win yao kiat!! hahah. . . i can so do stun nei!!! hmm 90 degrees shot!!!i think
only the guys will noe. . .super cool!!hmmm then i watched movie the campus ghost
story with the guys. . . hmmm not scary de. . . hmmm horrible moive. . . sux to the
core. . . waste money??? SO DUN WATCH!!! hmmm then went to play arcade??
hahah RACING hmmm 2nd nei!!! beginners luck!!! hahaha. . . i dun play arcade games
i think i too gal le. . . hahah. . . then met ahem ahem. . . SUPER GOOD LOOKING
came in styled jeans and super polish orange Bball shoes!!! he just makes my
heart pump. . . hmm then went to eat dinner at 10. . . so lame. . . hmmm then
i was not feeling well . . . but went start to play lan. . . counterstrike. . . i felt so much
better. . . hahaha. . .very fun. . . 2nd time i play. .. both times with him =) hahaha
so happy. . . he teach me a bit. . . hes damn pro!!! but i quite good for a beginner. . .
kill kill kill!!! hahaha. . . then we went to walk walk. . . walk til 1. . .hmm then me and
andy head home together. . . hahha. . . its good to have him as my neighbour. . .
can protect me. . . haha. . . the days was really good except that the tense between
us was too weird and that we didnt chat nor have eye contact. . .not pretty enuff
for him i wonder. . . guess i think too much. . .well i did cry buckets ytd. . .and
exposed my crying voice to (dun tell ur who nei) haiz. . . but its great that the
person cared who me other than treating me lyk weekend friend. . . weekend then
sms me. . . sad then sms me. . .bored then sms me. . . SICKENING. . .mAke me a
spare tire. . .
i think runnning or blogging really helps me to good down and feel better!!! serious!!!
hmmm super sad this morning. . . i woke up at 8 after sleeping abt 3. . . -.-
ppl here really cry and sad ytd ma. . . well i only think i wanna thank god is that
my parents never scold me for staying up. . . bcoz my hp no batt. . . she dunno e guys
hmmm i lied to her i watch late night movie and ate supper. . .
all for my selfish wants of wanting to spend time with him. . .hmmm am i dumb??
well. . . i guess my prelims starts now. . . i cant think of love only. . . mugging period
has just begun and i am going to conquer it!!!i am gg to be a super nerd. . . haiz. . .
wish myself luck!!
Ps: dun tag to comfort me abt today's entry. . . i dun wana hear the bad stuff
this is wad i want. . .no matter wad i know what im doing. . . =) -smiles-
Xue Hua
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