ytd me damn sad... i noe the reason why... i one thing i cant explain is that it has past soooo long ago... why does it still take effect... i cried 3 times while toking to mel mel on the fone... he tried comforting me... but i just cant stop crying... The feeling of crying over something that haunts you until today... I wrote something while i was crying... hope someone would comf0rt me...
I lost a person i love
Never will i ever find the key
the key to love
The feeling of being loved has disappeared in me
The feeling of love another had locked within me
Is there anyone who can open it?
hMMMmmm... i doubt so..
Not even me, myself could... who will?
Loving someone is lot harder than words
This is what i have learnt after i lost my love senses...
creepy??? yeah..........
Crying my heart out makes me feel even worse
A witted heart after a drought
sore eyes after the flood
A block nose after a disaster
A shivering body after winter
A numb tougue after summer
These are symtoms of rejection and affection
Haiz... this was how i felt... The words may be simple of prehaps unexpressive while that how i felt... i felt useless... hopeless... expressionless... simple-minded... luckily mel mel was toking to me on the fone through out the nite.... if not i most proberly wont be able to slp at nite... coz i will be remembering the "lovely" past of mine ....
since i have not been updating my blog for days??? i shall type something tt happened to me my klass on 7.10.04
On seventeen of october 2004 when my klass was having chinese, something happened... We were during our zuo ye , the whole klass was toking and discussing the answers coz miss tan went down to take to soemthing... Me Jian han regina sherwin was discussing the answers... copying here copying there... HAHAHA... then suddenly quite a few people was looking at Jian Han and later me... Regina suddenly ask Jian Han u got hear that??? then suddenly Tony and a few others ask Jian Han that question... Then he replied YES... I was wondering what was going on... coz i nv hear anything.... Then Tony ask me u got her anything... or call Jian han... i said no lahz.... me myself dun remember calling him... TOny said he heard a little girl calling the name Jian Han somemore very loud... I was stunt and confuse as i m sitting ion front of Jian Han and i cant hear it... whereas Tony hu is sitting so far away first row first table and sam last row last row could hear... creepy??? ya... the people surrounding me... some could hear some couldnt... they say they heard a little girl call Jian Han and it was very loud... But not everyone heard it... Different people of various sitting position heard it... then suddenly everyone was asking each other if they heard the voice... then it became a HOT TOPIC suddenly... every suspected it was me as i a closest to Jian Han... even Jian Han tot it was me... bcoz the voice was heard he looked up and saw me readin my textbook... then he didnt care abt the voice... but i didnt call Jian Han at all... Sherwin said the heard the voice some where behind me... And i was shock... as i sit behind Sherwin... Jian Han said he heard it coming from me... Regina and the other people sitting beside and behind Jian Han said the voice came from the behind part of the klass... But there izznt anyone sitting behind Jian Han... The people sitting behind Jian Han didnt hear... eg.. fiona guan nan ivan kai leong and elgin... CREEPY??? yahz.... during recess everone was soo scared lorx....
This wasnt the onli thingy that happened that very day.... After sch fiona and jenifer went to the girls toliet on the second level near 3C... Before they went in the had to on the the lights... That already indicate that there izznt anyone in the toliet.... Then went they where tidying themselves up... When jenifer was standing near the wall facing the mirror in as she was adjusting her skirt...she heard someone said hello... then she ask fiona izzt she call her... Fiona said no... then they both ran out of the toliet... as there wasnt anyone other than them lorx...
After they told me i remeber what Yani and Kai Wei told me the first day of the hungry festival... They both went to the same toliet together... They too have to on the light... When they finish doing what they had to do... they both washed their hands... Suddenly they heard someone toking in the toliet... and followed my a stop watch TEEEEEEeeeeee......... they both ran out of the toliet... on running out... there was no one outside the toliet... NO ONE IN SIGHT..... BELIEVE IT OR NOT.... BELIEVE IT...